first,
i dont know why.
but Lucky, as in the song lucky, NEVER FAIL to make me smile everytime i hear it.
and i feel like skipping and beaming my heart out.
shouting, "HEY! IM OKE NOW!" to the world.
um,how i wish that would happen.
well, it will someday.
BUT not alone or people will think im crazy or something else.
or,maybe i will.

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

-LUCKY, Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

OH!
and as promised.

THANKS HUNNY FOR TH CHIPS MORE COOKIES! ;D

lain kali aku pulaaa belanjee korang semuaaa.
tunggu ajaaa!
haha!

did i tell you how i love to stay back for a while after school
to discuss on sajaaaak.
and talk about all malay inspirations andd uh, malay words.
flood the whole floor with bombastic malay words.
haha! ;D
Nadhirah, Azlin,Norryn and Hunny. (:

yesterday.
my group and three others went to Thong Keng Home Blue Cross (whichever the name la)
its across th street from my school.
haha.
i had fun.
oke.
LOADS of funnn!
i love my some what buddy!
Lee Keok Leong, i think.
haha.
and before him, Simon.
but he went to Sofia after that.
my buddy cuteeee gilaaaaaaaaaaaa! ;D
i ask him questions then later he will answer.
"TWO!"
ngan the peace sign sekali, macam proud gituu!
haha!
he loves number two,i think.
and he loves to count and smileeee widelyy.
well, at least he made me laugh.
and fill up my time there.
and i still keep his 'masterpiece' and the rest colouring worksheets. ;D
ohhh, and my buddy.
he loves to draw lines.
maybe i should scan it and put it upp here. ;D
yeap,lineees.
loads and loads of lines.
then i ask him to draw circle.
so i drew one on his paper, but he drew lines on it instead then grin at me.
haha,cute kan?
then i draw another.
he did th same.
then laugh.
haha.
um,now im wondering if he really loves lines,or like to tease me or just irritate me,in a nice way.
haha. ;D
i miss him alrd.
haha.

it was raining.
kindda heavily.
since my EZ-LINK card for some reason throw tantrums at me.
i decide to walk home.
something i swore myself not to do until th time is right.
also i did something i swore not to do on monday too.
i think its monday, yes,monday.

sick of choking back tears.
somehow, i just burst into tears.
still, i cant find another alternative.
thnks whoever who is there. (:

oke.
as i was saying.
i swore myself i wont walk home via 'that route' until im ready
or the time is right.
well,its for my own good kan? (:

but i still did it.
it was nice.
walking in the rain.
feeling the rain on my skin.
the soothing feeling,
that satisfy my urge to just wash away,
drain all the memories i haddd there,and then.
since th path,it was quiet.
and the rain,was heavy.
i just walk,thinking, reminiscing.
and suddenly it all rolls down.
but it stopped eventually.
i knew,somehow,deep inside.
i have to move on.
i have to seek my own happiness.
i have to forget every single piece of memory of him i have with me.
well except for his name and existance in this world.

somehow,maybe, he wants me to be happy and move on.
maybe he hates to see me hurt and stuff.
hey,i hope you're doing fine.
because i am.
and im sorry for whatever i post about you.
you know how i lose myself to emotions,right?
im sorry.

and surprisingly.
after all those.
i feel so light-hearted.
oh and tiredddd! ;D
the moment im home,bathed and changed.
i crashed to my bedd and slept.
haha eventhough its 5 plus alrd! ;D
and woke up ard seven(?)
haha!

leave it all behind.
move along.